Month: September 2022

As Samuel’s mum, i am constantly afraid and worried about outsiders. These are people who i know may not appreciate the uniqueness that is Samuel. These are people that have not taken out time to really know him. These are people that have not earned my trust. It’s difficult to strike a balance between being protective and encouraging him to develop relationships in the community

I revently registered Samuel for camping and that took ALOT of encouragement from my husband; he is the one that makes my over analyzing mind make sence:). Days leading up to the first day of camp, my anxiety went on over drive. What if he gets disrespected or treated less than my members or leaders at the camp? I had many ‘what ifs’ because i am always worried about how people interract with him. What if he defends himself again another person at the camp, will he be able to articulate to the leadership what actually happened. Alot of valid and invalid thought ran through my mind.

It took Tope’s encouragement for me to let him go that morning and Samuel’s first word when he came back was “Can I go in 2023”. As a parent, I am unapologetically over protective but as a parent of Samuel, i can be can be too extra.

Is my fear valid? YES. Experience over these many years has taught me to have this fear. It has taught me to be trust less. However, i need to find a balance.

Samuel continnue to be my greatest teacher and one of my GREATER blessings.

As we prep for school, my anxiety is on overload. I have spent the last week over thinking and having restless time about course selected. Going into grade 11, Samuel had to select courses that align with his career goal and it was difficult knowing where we want to go plus the courses that align with his desire

Samuel wasnts to be a chef. I felt like computer science may be a great choice for him…well, it looks to be easy for him. I made his course choices with his career goal/desire in mind and with understanding that i don’t want him to take any unnecessary language centered course since language is our biggest challenge.

But as school is about to start, i am anxious, i am double guessing myself…should i have selected chemistry and Biology and co for him, should i have selected accounting for him, is it right to center his course around hospitality and fitness?

I don’t know if i made the right choice. My prayer is that Samuel will have an amazing year. That his future will be super bright. That my choices for him will not impact his life negatively. I also pray that my anxiety will subside and i can enjoy the second to the last high school year of the boy that has taught me more about myself than anyone else.

Congratulations Sammie boi and to all the students. Wishing you all great success.