Month: February 2020

I thought hard about writing this and weigh it for about a week but as I sit on this train thinking about my colleagues having fun times together while I rush to take Samuel to his session, I have to admit to myself that I do miss what it could have been.

When I had Samuel my 2 in-laws and 3 friends were pregnant at the same time. We all had the kids close to each other (Between end of August and Decemebr); 1 girl (Esosa) and 5 boys. Out of all the kids, Samuel was/is the only one with unique needs.

There are times when my thought drifts to the kids, I think about how they can now go to school on their own, go to the mall with friends,go to the movies, have a crush, some are likely looking for summer jobs now since they can do some work at 14. I think about school…i think so much about what Samuel could have been without Autism…. I think about him having a life partner…i think about how he will be able to keep his job..It hurts when i see how Autism has changed our lifes

In thesame token, when I think about Samuel, I think about how he does not miss not having friends, I think about how he has been walking to school with his brother since September without any issue.  I think about how I can leave him with his brother for an hour without issue, I think about how he was able to transition from 7 years of Autism classroom to mainstream  classroom, I think about all he has accomplish, I think about how he will do anything for me if I show any sign of sadness,I think about how he is so intune with my emotions even when I put on a brave face,

I think alot about what we have accomplished but I have to be truthful to myself, seeing his age mates do age appropriate  things that he can’t do, hurts my soul.  Don’t get me wrong,I am blessed to be his mama and blessed for all he is but I still hurt

As a mum to Sam, I have learnt over the last 13 years to celebrate the “smallest” victories. We have been working hard on our speech since Samuel was 18 months old, we started with saying “pop” to describe bubbles. It has indeed been a long Journey that took us over 7 years to be able to join 2 words together to make our mini sentence.

Regardless of speech related obstacle placed ahead of us,we work hard and selflessly to overcome them all. Samuel is a very unique child that I hope everyone will have the privilege to meet and interract with one day. As much as I drag him to one speech session, ABA and the others since 18 months, he does not complain…he has learnt to tolerate my antics and random sessions.

My passion for his success is rooted in the fact that he can do all things. ..That he is unstoppable…..That his mind is sound….that he will Indeed be great in this life……I call him my retirement plan 🤣

The objective of this post is to announce that we can now properly pronounce “TH” in words. The therapist officially discharge us and in addition gave us 2 months off. Some may say “what’s the big deal, he still has speech delay”but unless you know our journey, you may never be able to appreciate our current state.

Maybe I will share on a session we are currently taking which focus on sex and teens on spectrum…pray for me people🤣

So I was late to get home yesterday and I got a call, as I looked at my phone,I saw Samuel’s name. I picked and the following was our convo..

Me: Hello

Samuel: Where are you

Me: I am on the train, I am running a lite late

Samuel: Are you okay? Are you attacked?

Me: No,I’m sorry. I just left work late

Samuel: When will you be home

Me: In half hour

Samuel:Okay,bye

Samuel is one of the nicest person I know. He cares deep and love even deeper. As today is my birthday, he said to me before leaving the car..

“Today is your birthday so you’re suppose to have a good day, bye” 🤣🤣🤣

So I am here with my legs crossed and having a good day as directed by master Samuel

As I sit on this train this morning,it finally hit me like a heavy emotional brick.. Samuel aka Big Papa aka gentle giant ….my little 7 pounds baby on a cold Monday in Novemeber is going to high school. The boy that didnt say mama when all the other kids born around thesame time were already having a full conversation. My beautiful baby that wasn’t going to likely be independent is now a very wonderful young man that is high school bound. I am in awe at how far God has brought us…at how far we have come….at how far I have been able to bring him…at how much my sacrifices…Aaron sacrifices…Tope’s sacrifices has brought us.

I didn’t have alot of support during this journey and I now understand the purpose of this…..it’s so I dont share the glory of this moment with nobody. Abby, you have done very well

Samuel You have done super dupper

Aaron,more than anyone, you have been the truest and most loyal MVP

I CANNOT BELIEVE IT….WE ARE HIGHSCHOOL BOUND💃🏾💃🏾💃🏾❤

Samuel always find ways to assure me that all will be well. His sense of humor,his laughter, his ability to tolerate my many many new ideas. He truly gives me more than I can ever give him. He makes me look at life differently,he makes me laugh (he is a comedian 😂), he brings light to my darkest time and finds ways to encourage me to look at life differently.

He does all this without even trying…..he does it with little effort. I believe God spent more time when making that boy.