We drove through the rain and…..not a scream

Yesterday, we had one of the heaviest rain I have seen in years and lucky for me😁, the boys and I found ourself in the middle of it all. I was prepared for what was about to happen….the screams, the panic, the cry, the covering of ears with so much fear, the grabbing of the wheel for me to stop…..I was scared to be honest because Samuel is stronger and bigger than me now. To say I wasn’t scared would be a lie….I was terrified.

Samuel had extreme fear of the weather, it could be the weather changing from light to dark, rain or sound of thunder….it was fearful for him. We always had to prepared for the battle when the time changes and 6pm now look like 9pm at night. It was years of battle

But yesterday, it was almost nothing. At some point he asked if a light that shined into the car was lightning but I was able to explain that it was the light from another car…..outside of that nothing else. So I asked Aaton, “Do you remember what Samuel use to do when it rains” Aaron said he didn’t remember. As we all know, Samuel has awesome memory so I asked him and he said “I didn’t like it. I use to be afraid”. So I asked how he was feeling, he said he was okay.

He was so excited about the rain. At one point when it was so heavy, the car was practically shaking, he brought his phone out to record and was disappointed when the rain slowed down.

When I see these moments…the glimpse into where we were years ago….3 years ago….even last year….I become grateful for God’s faithfulness…..for the strength in me….for his drive to overcome any obstacles in his way…..I love seeing more of Samuel emerge….. I love seeing him managing his sensory input and doing things his way.

He is an amazing young man. He keeps surprising me….BTW, my baby has hair coming out of his chin now……and one of my sisters said his voice is changing…..I AM NOT READY🙄