Since the lockdown, Samuel has been stemming significantly more. The stress over the what he presume to be a negative impact from the US election combined with COVID 19 is not helping either. Over the last 10 months or so, our home has felt the aftermath of all this stress on Samuel
We now have 2 dinnig chairs because he has managed to break the rest, in the basement, we had 4 holes on the wall from him bumping his chair against the wall as he is not able to sit still for an extended period. I’ve since gotten him gaming chair and fixed the holes.
The huge hole on downstairs staircase is from him stumbling into the wall, hole in the living room is from him falling down to sit and continuously bumping into the same spot. This holes I haven’t had the time to fix but it’s on my ‘To do’ list this coming week as I will be on Vacation.
Now to today, as I was about to take his picture sitting down, I looked and there was a huge dent on my dinning wall. I was shocked, I got angry, I raised my voice, I queried him….I am tired of the dents and hole….I am tired of him stemming….I am tired of my beautiful home getting damaged…..my head started pounding…..I became super angry…. I became tired
I asked him why he didnt tell me, he said “Because of this” pointing directly at me. “I know you will be like this, upset”. It’s difficult not to be upset but I need to evaluate myself and figure out a better way to express my frustration. Seeing the new dent just got me so tired. It’s like all the effort is not producing alot of result. I feel like I dont know how much more I can do to manage this
On a positive note, I now know how to fix holes on the wall. I just need to know learn how to cut and replace drywall.
Abby you are an amazing Mom. If anyone deserved Mother of the year it is you. I had challenges with my boys but you really have challenges. Samuel has a Mom who has his best interests at heart and I know he appreciates that very much. You did not need Covid on your plate. It sounds like you have a great doctor and maybe he can offer more help. I will pray for you for strength and wisdom for the challenges you face. God bless you.
Thank you so mu h Ms Debbie. I really appreciate your prayer and encouraging words
Sis , it is ok to be upset sometimes, I tell always you how great a mum you are . Samuel is so lucky to have you. I can’t wait to see Sam again !
My aburo of life, you’re awesome. Thank you
You are an amazing mother. I know it’s not easy but please continue to look at the bright side of Samuel.
My love to Samuel and his siblings.
Thank you so much for always sending us positive vibes ❤
Can I just hug you as tight as possible? This is when I wish Manchester was that close to you so he can actually come for a few days.
You’re an amazing mum and it’s ok to be upset and let the fume out once in a while.
I don’t have the right words but just know you’re amazing at what you do and most of us would have been a complete mess by now if we were to be in your shoes.
Shall we try the “breath and count to 10” before you react thing? 😊
God bless you all x
Awe…this made me cry. You should be glad Manchester is not as close because God knows, I will be clubbing a night and you will be raising this kids🤣🤣🤣
Thanks so much, you are super wonderful